Why is that two people who love each other, can feel like two complete strangers?
We sit in this heavy silence which just makes me feel more alone than when I was without him... I love him, but why does it feel like we're just existing in the same room rather than actually spending time with each other? I put effort into it in the beginning and then just... give up because he's not bothering. It's like I'm just this permanent fixture in his life that he can pay attention to when he wants too. He's gunna argue if he ever saw this that that's not true, but right now that's how it feels. I showered, got dressed, came round his. And he hasn't been bothered to even try to get down to me.I asked him to bring my laptop down, which he's for over the day he "needed" it. He has had it for 2 weeks. That's 13 more days than agreed and he asked me to come up to him instead. Well, I try that, dear, but I always end up leaving for "just one more day".
Money. I lend him money to buy something, and I never see it again. I pay for our dates and I'm broke as. I understand that. I just sometimes wish I didn't always have to be the one funding a date that... I organised and asked for...
8 months. 8 months from buying me things to me wondering why he isn't paying me back...
Why is it that I feel like I'm being used...? Am I being used...?
Why would he say he loves me, and then never try to show it?
- BlackSaphirax
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