Questions with no answers #4

There's always that one friend we worry about constantly...  And I always wonder whether the fact that I'm in a different country to her just makes it that much more difficult to make sure that she's okay... I always wonder if she's not telling me something really important, just like I don't tell her things, just because I don't have time to type it all down just to had a long conversation over it... Maybe she doesn't want to have the long conversation I don't like having...
But if we don't tell each other what's wrong then how are we gunna help each other? If we don't live in the same country, how are gunna try and sort it out when we do find out?
How can I help when I live in another country?!

- BlackSaphirax

Confessions of an overthinker #2

Getting help is hard enough as it is, but when it’s been with you for years… then the hardest to say, “Yeah… I’ve needed helped for a long while.”

But when someone is there, who loves you, holds your hand as you tell you story, smiles at you when you feel like you’re about to cry, and kisses you, telling you that you’ve done the best thing for yourself. And for them. So they can stop worrying about how tired you are or how much you’ve eaten. They can just focus on loving you, and you can focus on loving them back.

And they will be there. All the way through the pain and the suffering of just getting healthy.

And you love them even more, even though its practically impossible to love someone more than you already do <3

It’s all you need to have the strength to get help.

- BlackSaphirax -

Confessions of an overthinker #1

I hate having to leave. Whether it to go back to my parents house, or anywhere away from the person I want to be with… It sucks not being able to fall asleep with them, cuddle with them till the morning and just be safe within their arms.

But I guess, I wont know that feeling for a couple more years. I guess, I just wont know a night without my nightmares.

- BlackSaphirax -

This is why I love my boyfriend

I would never leave you, not for anything, not for money, not for video games, not for friends, not for food, not for my MacBook, not for the world, i am yours and you are mine, and I will always be yours, aslong as you can be mine :) xxx <3 I love you. Always x


- BlackSaphirax -

Questions with no answers #3

Those people you think are stable and are sane are always the ones to break… Or to change… or are just not there…

You see, sometime we just need stability and sometimes we just really dont get it. I sometimes wish for something stable, and normal, and is just what I need. I mean, sure I’ll work for it, but I just wish that it’s not all tears and tantrums. That sometimes they’re the ones to figure it out, rather than me spelling it out for them with words I’d rather not say outloud. Why cant they just know, you know?

Why cant things be simple?

- BlackSaphirax -